The Hug

Once again I saw you randomly in my dream...I guess I must have been thinking of you because it has been a while since I dreamt of you...

More than the dream I am able to recall the feeling...or rather feelings...within the dream and after being awake... and it stays with me even now.

I dont remember the context nor what was happening...just that we were in a crowd of familiar people and you grabbed me from behind like a big, warm, comfy blanket, in the most sweetest, innocent and loving kind of way. The kind of hug that makes you feel loved just for who you are and as you slowly swayed me side to side, I remember just giving in and smiling...losing myself in the moment..in the feeling. The world around just melting away, the two of us in this incredibly, warm, fuzzy place that only we could enjoy.

From a distance I hear someone cat call or make a joke and you return the serve with your usual good humor and wit. 

It was the most amazing embrace one could have, so pure and endearing that only a friend could convey without any hidden meaning.

I spent the whole day trying to decipher and decode this dream. These days its hard to remember anything so why did I remember this clearly and why could I not get it out of my head...?

And as I pen this down, like a flashback I remember that summer evening when we met at our friend's place...all of us back to our home town from our college break. So proudly our mutual friend shows off his digital camera (it was the year 2000 or something so please forgive the excitement) and we start taking silly pictures together...and there it is...probably the only picture of the two of us...you hugging me from behind and both of us looking goofy and giddy. Twenty four years later I am sitting here...reminded of those days like a bitter sweet memory...nostalgia and once again questions of what ifs...but most of all...how much I miss you my friend.  

Dedicated to the one who always calls me 'love'